Saturday, December 25, 2010

It is Christmas!

Merry Christmas everybody!

Many years my sister and I have each got one large present, or one for us to share. This year, my "big present" was a video camera! I'm definitely looking forward to playing with it and using my new program to create some videos! Hopefully I will be able to upload them here sometime :)

It has been a wonderful day for all of us here; the day (technically) started when I was texting Calleigh at midnight because neither of us were sleeping for excitement. ;)

Well, goodnight to you all! And Merry Christmas!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Poetry

Here are two poems that I find somewhat related. Both in style and similar emotions that I wrote with.

What I Felt In But A Moment
Suffocating;
Thick
Heavy
Air.
I gasp
To breathe;
Such thick
Heavy
Tension
In the air.
Smothered;
Covered
Closed
Hidden.
Worry
Saps my breath.
Energy
Fails.
Surrounded;
Snagged
Caught
Consumed,
Enclosed by screaming silence.
Delirious
Furious
Withdrawn.
Alas,
I am afraid
Amidst a whirling cyclone
Of Confusion

Tension of Deafness
Tension
Of chaos
Drowned from lack of air
Breath is lacking
Silence wanting
The quiet only comes
From deafness
When the screaming overtakes
Sound exploding
Every breath is drawn
As a gasp
Rushed
Attempt to swallow air
Failed
The storm of noise and chaos
A twist snatching peace
Taking all serene
Stealing hope.
Tension
Binds like thorny rope
Caught by snags of noise
So loud
Silence wishful thinking
Until all hearing lost
Deafness
Welcome.

Skyeler

Monday, December 20, 2010

Photoshop for Fun!

I enjoy editing pictures on photoshop either for practical purposes (rarely) or for my own amusement. They do not always turn out how I like them to, or even make sense have of the time, but it's still enjoyable!

This first one is how I would imagine the ovulum from the Oracles of Fire series (by Bryan Davis. Scroll down a few posts for more information!) I can not take credit for this picture, as it came with a photoshop book that taught me how to make the stone glow. So really, this is just following instructions for the most part, but I was pleased with the outcome! And I added the rays of light and the eye in the center, to finish of the touches and make it the ovulum, not just a rock that glows (theirs was purple!)
This is a picture my mother took of me early this year. I decided to transform myself into a chaaracter (not the first time this has been tried) but this time I used a character from my own story. This...didn't turn out quite how I wanted, but it was fun nonetheless. This character is a fairy, so she has wings. I tried to add them. Not horrendous, but not...great. I added the little star things all around of course. I also had some fun with editing myself ;) I darkened my eye color, changing it to a light brown (hypothetically.) I lightened my hair with the dodge tool, and then gave it a very slight yellow/blonde color. I did the same to my eyebrows. I whitened my teeth (wow, that was an interesting thing to do!) and took out a brown spot from moms camera from my shirt. And I also fixed up my skin a bit to make my complexion a bit more clear, and added "digital" makeup to my eyes. So below is my rendition of a book character!
This photo was taken by Calleigh (thank you Calleigh!) and it was so cool! Unfortunately, it was a pink mirror I was holding (not too dramatic) so I needed to change that. I suppose I got carried away ;) I added contrast and darkened the photo a tad. I took out the dark circles under my eye and touched up my complexion again. I lightened around my earring to see if I could make it sparkle more. I darkened my lashes a tad, colored my lips a little bit, and fixed my eyebrows. My hair was left mostly the same, though it was darkened by the change of contrast. The title was just for fun. I also considered Inner Beauty as a title. I thought it sounded like an intriguing book cover! But...alas...I have not wrote it. (So Calleigh, Sarah, and Emily...I have opened a new opportunity for you with a book cover already created! *bows*)
Skyeler

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Could One Love?

This is a poem I wrote a few months ago. Unknowingly, it became one of my best works yet, and others have complimented and given me more praise than I deserve! In any case, I have decided to post this poem. It has become one of my favorites.

Could One Love?

My face was hardened,
Stained by tears
Their salty tracks
Betrayed my fears
Throughout my life
I pushed away
So why these scars
Haunt me today
A child grasps
Her daddy’s hand
Were she to fall
He’d help her stand
A place inside
With envy filled
Where once my long
For love was stilled
Would ever I
Belong to one
But now I stay
Observed by none
My heart of stone
Forged long ago
Remaineth cold
Like icy snow
Longing fills
Emotion’s place
I once ignored
But now beg grace
Could someone love
One stained as I
Afraid to feel
Afraid to cry
I once was hurt
Once cast aside
Though promised love
To me they lied
My frozen tears
Now melt like ice
I trusted love
And paid the price
I caged myself
In stoic mask
Why doth my heart
Forsake its task
To never care
To only beat
Though wander I
Lost through the street
I hid myself
Behind my lies
I scoffed at other
Orphans cries
Such terrors haunt
A place within
I once ignored
Despite the din
Of screams of pain
That clutch and grab
Refuse release
Persist and stab
My appearance cold
A mirror of life
That’s all I’ve known
These years of strife
Could someone love
One stained as I
Afraid to feel
Afraid to cry
Yet now I sob
Now I ache
My heart is ice
But soon will break
I long for love
To be aware
And show just once
This lost one care
Though many pass
Not one will see
This fallen waif
That cries “Help me!”
I lie forgotten
Forsaken here
Is it my call
To drown in tear
A man lifts up
My shaken form
Around him dims
Surrounding storm
Who is this man
Who saw my hurt
Who knelt beside me
In the dirt
“My daughter” he says
“My child dear
“Forsake your pain
“Forsake your fear
“I’ll wash it in
“My crimson blood
“Release them now
“Into this flood”
Alas I tremble
But I obey
I want to know
This man today
This man who saw
One stained as I
He took my hurt
And let me cry
He gave me life
He washed me white
He turned my dark
Into His light.

Skyeler

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Birds

About a week ago hundreds of birds were flying about our neighborhood. There were in trees in our front yard, backyard, and in our neighbors' yards. Flying past the windows and making a lot of noise, I eventually looked outside to see just how many there were. They were like leaves on the trees there were so many of them! Hardly an hour later, all of them were gone. It was a small, short-lived experience, but it was still amazing! The next week on our way to church I saw an Eagle in the snowstorm. It was beautiful, and I wish we would start bringing the camera with us always. But alas, that has yet to happen. So instead I have written a poem about the many birds in our yard that day :) As of yet, it has no title.

The screeching melody
Is heard
Out of my window.
Black against the blue
Lit
By this sunny afternoon.
The awkward pleasantness
Of chaos harmony
Thousands of voices
Rising
Reaching
In one and several chords
The beat
Of a hundred wings
The chime
Of wind
Stirring lack of leaves
Kissing tenderly
The branches they light upon
Before their winter flight.
Surrounded
Like a cyclone
By mindless chattering
Melodious
In another language
I do not speak.
The sound
The beauty
Confusion and discord
Becomes a wonder.
But they spread their wings
And not an hour later
They're gone.


December 8, 2010

Skyeler